Remember When . . .

Remember when -

• you took your first step
• spoke your first word
• your first day of school
• high school graduation
• your first kiss
• first date
• first time you got laid
• going away to college
• your first drink
• the day you got married
• birth of your children
• your children's firsts
• the times you laugh
• the times you cry
• your successes
• your disappointments
• your losses
• your achievements
• those who have hurt you
• those who have loved you
• when you laughed
• when you cried
• when you were happy
• when you were sad
• when you felt safe
• when you believed
• when you had the courage to take risks
• when you developed the wisdom to avoid those risks
•  when the world was a gentler and kinder place to live

If you could turn back time, would you?  What would it accomplish?  Would you do things differently?  Probably not !!

Oh there are many things in life that we may regret and would like to have changed but we cannot turn back time.  We can remember and learn from those experiences, so we avoid making those same regrets again. 

There are a few things in my life I would like to change but I know I cannot.  But I thought I would share a few of my regrets with you . . .

If I could turn back time, I would

• been a more of a leader than a follower in my early years
• not of let others take advantage of me or make baseless assumptions
• never pull over on the side of the road to change drivers
• never let alcohol blur my judgments
• fight for what is right rather than relying on others to be objective
• confront situations rather than trying to avoid confrontation
• of liked to stay home with my children when they were young
• of liked to have more time with my children
• have been more laid back and taken life a bit less seriously
• enjoyed each moment I had with everyone who is important to me
• of had a nose job when they had to reset it- am not going through that pain again

 Remember as adults we must set examples for our children.  It is experiences (good and bad) that influence the person we become.  Children will develop their own regrets and hopefully they too will remember when . . .  They can learn from those past experiences by applying those lessons to future ones, always taking steps forward to better future.

Remember to always believe, enjoy, laugh and love!!!  Life should be fun!

Death of a child

Death of a child is the worst thing a parent has to experience.  It is devastating and leaves a whole in your heart forever.  How do I know this?  Fourteen years ago a drunk driver took the lives of two of my children and to this day I feel a loss; an emptiness.  My daughter was pronounced brain dead at the age of eleven and my son had so much internal damage that he was pronounced dead at the scene.  My eldest, was twelve and seriously injured but thrives today at the age of 26.  It is this lonesome child that kept me sane. It's difficult to imagine how life would of been so different for us all especially my son to have his siblings.  Fortunately, I am lucky to survived with my marriage in tact.  Although there were a few rocky years that had to be worked through.  Every person touched by children's lifes has experienced this loss as they were wonderfully active children and dearly missed by many.  Some days are more difficult than others but some of the numbness has worn off through the years but the emptiness is still felt.  Even though the tears do not come as often, they stil ldo flow.  All it takes is a song, event, a special child...  It is a lifelong sentence of sorrow.  Now each night I look above and say a special prayer to my loving angels that have worked to help us through this difficult plight.